When it seems too late don't give up. Say this prayer..

"God, I have prayed for years. I have done everything I know to do in order to see my dreams come true. I have had seasons of working hard and seasons of "letting go and letting God" and, still, the things I have believed You for seem like they will never happen. ... I have had one disappointment after another. And it's almost too late. God do not let me miss my destiny! But do not let me hope for things that are not a part of Your plans for my life. Let me hear Your voice telling me what You really have for me. Give me a glimpse of the gifts You have for me so that I might fight with faith to apprehend Your promises. Help me to understand the difference between what I must go after and what I must wait on You for. When it is up to me, give me the strength to demolish doubt and to march fearlessly into the new day You have prepared for me. When I must wait on You, give me grace and patience. Fill me with holy anticipation that accompanies a perfect timed present. They say You are never, ever late. God in these days when it seems like time is pressing in around me on every side, keep me firm in faith. Save me from giving up. Don't let me stop short of my blessing. Thank You for being faithful. Always faithful. It is never too late with you. Amen"... T D Jakes

RE Apt. - Everything Delayed by a Week :(

BAD NEWS - Everything is now delayed by a week. My estrogen levels are still too high where like 97.8 guess that is too high. So I have to change everything by a week later. Up my Lupron to 20mg a day and go back on Sunday (he said Monday but I am going to try to see if they will do Sunday cause I got acupuncture in the same town as my RE on Sunday and don't want to do two trips). Had to message Dr. K tell her about the bad news and find out if she wants me to change my apt with her to a week later. My husband now has to try and change vacation days too which is really hard to get off at his work and I can not drive to IL or Milwaukee without him when we get to that point. I am so frustrated why can my body not do what it needs to do!! Nothing can go right for me always a road block. No idea what will happen if my estrogen is not low enough by Sunday?, if that will mean more delays. About to break down and cry right now :(

I also did my CD1 blood work for Dr. K this morning. Some of it went in the container you see above and I Fedex it overnight to her lab in Chicago cause it was suppose to be cycle day 1 today and now it's not so that is all messed up as I didn't find this out till later today. 

 

Update 7/10 - Thankfully Dr. K nurse said it was alright we did the blood work a little early they can still use the results. I spent yesterday changing all my Dr. apt. Transfer is now looking to be August 5th. AF showed up today so I am sure that will help lower my estrogen levels. I go back Sunday to RE for E2 check and first acupuncture apt.with a lady near my RE's office. The extra lupron is making me so tired though but hopefully it's working.

Week 2

Dr. Kwak-Kim has been doing weekly monitoring of my thyroid. Last week it jumped up past two and I had to up my synthroid. Seems to have come down some this week. Hope it continues to drop or I am sure she will up my meds again to keep it under two.

Last weeks TSH 2.71 FT3 3.61 FT4 1.21
This weeks TSH 2.36 FT3 2.57 FT4 1.23

Shots are going good. The Lupron is pretty easy to measure out and administer. So far worst side effects is headaches and feeling tired. Predisone has me feeling like the munchies so I've had to be careful to not gain weight. Trying to walk at least 30min a day.

Been a hard week emotionally. If we had not mc in November we would of been due this week. It's hard not to think of the what if's and wonder what your child would of been like. Just praying that by this time next year my tears will be turned to joy.

First Shot Done

First shot done, wasn't too bad little sting, heard that Lupron can cause ya to be all hormonal so this should be fun :) Also starting Predisone 10mg today to that will help lower my immune system. Only 31 more days to go till transfer. And a ton more shots in between then and now and then another 9 months of them if we get a bfp. I'll be poking myself from this day forth lol Crazy that this is all for a maybe a slight chance at that ever elusive bfp we all dream about and prayerfully a live birth too. Makes me mad thinking on past comments that those who do IVF are creating a baby without love, it takes more love, more determination, more work, more sacrifice and coaperation in our marriage to support each other through this then those who just hop in bed on a one night stand. We love and want this child more than many! Praying that everything we have gone through the past 10+ years has led us to the answers and medications we finally need to bring about the child He has planned for us. With God anything is possible and believing his hand in is every step of this cycle helping us along the way and creating life. 

 

The First step of a FET is to suppress the pituitary gland. This is necessary to reduce the chances of ovulation occurring unexpectedly. Lupron shots are used for pituitary suppression. For most women, this will require approximately two weeks of daily Lupron injections. (I am also suppressing my immune system this time around with Predisone starting today too)

The second step in a frozen embryo transfer cycle is to use hormones to duplicate the changes that normally occur in the uterus during a regular menstrual cycle. This requires the use of two hormone medications: estrogen and progesterone.

*Lupron acts by suppressing the pituitary gland (the gland which is normally responsible for triggering ovulation). However, before suppression occurs, Lupron will briefly stimulate the pituitary causing an increase in the pituitary hormones LH (luteinizing hormone) and FSH (follicle stimulating hormone). If the Lupron is continued, it will eventually stop the pituitary from producing LH and FSH. This is known as the suppression phase. Since it requires an extended period time to reach the suppression phase, Lupron is usually started a few weeks before starting the other medications needed for a particular treatment. This allows the patient to “get past” the stimulation phase and into the suppression or desensitization phase.  

FET

Dates Finally

FET - everything looked clear to start today with my RE and u/s.

I had to wait while they typed up a calendar for me but I finally got one. Then I asked if the nurse could go over how to give myself the Lupron shots and then she showed my husband how to do the Progesterone shots in my butt. Not sure if I like the idea of him poking me lol.

Just e-mailed Dr. Kwak-Kim my RI all the info and working on setting up things with her. Starting meds tomorrow. Really nervous this time around.

Kinda my estimated dates below:
6-27 - did U/S to confirm ovulation with Dr. Olive RE
6-28 - Begin Lupron, Begin Predisone 10mg
7-8 - 10:00am Baseline visit with Dr. Olive: trial transfer, u/s, estradiol blood work, begin estradiol 2mg 3xday (collect blood for Dr. K to be sent to IL lab)
7-13 - Begin Lovenox 40mg daily
7-22 - Ultrasound to check lining and blood flow with Dr. Kwak-Kim in Vernon Hills IL 12:30
7-23 - Intralipids IV treatment
7-24 - Discontinue Lupron, continue asprin, lovenox, estradiol, add progesterone shots100mg/day in AM, prometrium 200mg orally in PM
7-29 - estimated embryo transfer
8-8 - Pregnancy Test
8-9 - Intralipids IV treatment if we get a BFP

Please keep us in prayer this is going to be a busy and trying month for the both of us. Keeping myself focused on the end goal will help get me through all the medications and shots this time around. I have hope that God will bless us. 

Calendar

June

July

August

 

UPDATE:

 
Heard back from Dr. K
The following are your thyroid results dated 6/24/13 and recommendations per Dr. Kwak:  

TSH 2.71 FT3 3.61 FT41.21                                                                                                    

Recommendations:
a. Increase the Synthroid to 50 mcg daily
b. Repeat testing in one week

Very relieved tonight that both Doctors are on the same page and things are rolling along now. Huge weight off my shoulders. Not sure what made my Thyroid spike though after it's been so good for months but at least they are on top of it with monitoring it.

Stressed

Found myself stress eating a bag of chips this afternoon and lots of anxiety over my apt. tomorrow with my RE in madison. I am suppose to have a u/s to make sure I ovulated then start meds on Friday but I have such a bad feeling about it all right now. Feeling like my RE is not on top of my case, I have no calendar of dates he promised me weeks ago, no news on the Intralipids and if nothing tomorrow I am going to have to make the difficult decision to postpone this FET or find a new RE. Can't begin to describe how much of a mess I am right now. Need prayers!!

And it Begins :)

Well guess what surprise I got today - was thinking it was not going to happen till next week - but I must be more and more regular since doing the new meds - so only 29 days and AF is here TODAY!! So Day 1 of FET has begun. Just e-mailed my Dr. and told them and will call Monday morning too cause I need a schedule so Scott can plan days off. Also have to make sure the Dr. checked with Dr. Sher to get my Intralipids prescription ready so I can also set that up. Around 6/28 will be first u/s then 6/29 Lupron starts. AHHH!!! Now I am nervous!!