The 14th of this month was my due date. Reading thru my blog today makes all the emotions come back. I think about what he/she would of been and why? It will be a hard weekend for me. Not to mention a hard holiday year too many memories of all the joy and excitement of last year to the letdown and pain of now. We have so far yet to go to reach our $ goal of doing our FET, I think of our snowflakes all the time, praying we can transfer some this next year. I know God hears prayers and has answered so many of my friends I would just like him to answer ours. And please don't tell us about God's will, or to adopt etc. We have snowflakes waiting for us it's just a matter of money and that part sucks! I am thankful for what God has done in the waiting for the friends I have made and the ministry of HBW. I am thankful for each of you who get your bfp's. But time for us is running out and that makes me sad. To never know a child call you mommy to feel their little arms wrap around your neck, see them get married, have grandchildren, to be alone if my dh passes before me is not a place I thought I would ever be in. 10yrs of struggle, 10yrs of prayer, 10yrs of still being faithful, 10yrs of others telling us they see us having kids prophetic words that have never come to pass, how much longer Lord can you test my patience. I will continue to be hoping believing waiting unless you show us otherwise but please make it soon.
