A Year Ago

Thurs. Sept. 8th 2011, my box of IVF medications arrived for cycle 1. Can't believe it's been almost a year. On our 10th anniversary we transferred, got preg, then mc a few weeks later. Now we will be celebrating our 11th anniversary end of Sept. and still no child to love and fill our home with joy. 

 

I wonder if it will ever happen for us??

 

Still working on our goal of saving $6500 by 2013 so we can see the RI specialist and do a FET.  So far we have been able to save $3000 of that. Still have a ways to go to reach our goal.

 

Does anyone else freak about ttc and mc? I never thought about mc before only about actually getting pregnant but now I fear I will mc like we did again and that is making me so scared as 2013 comes closer to even think about doing a FET.  All I can do is hope Dr. Kwack-Kim will have the answers we need when I get to see her.

Trusting God has a plan and doing my best to keep on this journey he set us upon so many years ago. Praying one day it will be our turn. 

Thankfully I had this year to be able to be with my mom as she went through Breast Cancer. She is all free of cancer and recently returned to work. We had a good time together working on a generation scrapbook while she stayed with us during radiation treatment. I am glad for God's healing and hope that next year we can finally make her a grandma. 

We also adopted a Bengal kitten, nothing we had planned, but he just happened to come into needing us due to some medical issues and we where able to give him a home. He's a sweet little guy and has brought me some joy when I needed it most. 

 

Thank you everyone for your continued prayers and support of our journey. 

 

Summer

The hot heat of summer is here. Having to water our garden several times a day and our lawn is looking brown and crispy. Strawberries are coming soon been fun trying to keep the birds out of them. Rest of our garden is coming along. Already canned rhubarb strawberry jam, elderberry jelly and made many goodies with rhubarb so far this year. The bunnies ate some of our cucumbers so we have to get some new one's this weekend and bunny proof again.

Cd 31 and no sign of af, doubt if femara helped ovulation and with my mom living with us not much of any BDing happened. My mom still has a few more weeks of radiation left. While here she has helped me do some much needed elimination of items on our front porch. Been thankful for the help.

Time sure is slipping by fast this year I keep praying we will be able to save what we need for January and another chance. It's hard to stay positive for sure.

CD9

On CD 9 today. We are giving some Femara a try this month. I don't know if it will work never did with the IUI's we did. We know it creates follicles not sure without a trigger if I will ovulate, have some opk strips I'll try and do some BDing this week. I got to feel like I am doing something this year while we save for our FET. I get worried though I'll just mc again. Guess all we can do is try and hope and pray. Got to be our turn sometime.

Hoping to get back to normal

I went to my chiro yesterday morning, told him about not getting cycles, he did some lower back adjustments for it. I was on cd42. Last time I went over 60days and had to take provera to get a cycle. I then had my physical Wed. afternoon and during the pap Dr. said there was evidence of blood in the cervix indicating af is arriving which was surprising. Seems the chiro may have helped it along cause af arrived late last night with a vengeance. UGH! Didn't get much sleep was in the bathroom too sick and today just had to be when I needed to go with my Mom to the cancer center. It worked out ok but I am dead tired just got home a bit a go was gone all day. Here's to hoping my cycles are back now. I'm going to start some Femara on cd3-7 (have some left over so figure why not do a few cycles while we save for the FET) don't have much hope anything will happen but then again miracles still happen. :) Dr. also wants me to do my first mammogram. With my Mom having breast cancer now he thinks it is good I start screening myself. Should be interesting little scared about it all. Lost more weight, nice to feel my pants getting lose. Goal is to keep working on another 15lbs, figure small goals are good.  Well here's to getting healthier and getting back to normal cycles.