Life goes on ...

Thought I'd sit down and post a update in here as it has been awhile. Life is going as well as expected since the mc. For most all of Jan. I was very ill physically and just as I was recovering the depression set in and made it difficult to function for awhile. Only by the grace and strength of God have I been able to pick myself up and go on.

Starting my online Hoping Believing Waiting store has really helped me focus on the future, to be able to do something to bless others while also fundraising for our own journey has helped keep me going. Wristband sales have not been as much as I had hoped for but better than it could of been. I am currently working on baby dust necklaces that I will be adding to the store soon and other wristband designs as well as ideas for gemstone pins and necklaces.

March has not been any easier of a month. My Mom had a routine mammogram and it came back with an abnormal spot on her left breast, she went for a ultrasound and it confirmed there is a tiny 5mm mass. Yesterday I went to a surgeon with her and she is going to undergo a surgical biopsy on Wed. morning where they will remove the whole mass. It goes for testing and prayerfully it will not be cancer. Please pray for healing for my Mom. She has not had a easy life, widowed at a young age she still needs to work to support herself and cancer thrown in the mix is not what she needs right now. I pray God will also give me the strength to be there for her in whatever way is needed.

April will bring about being on call for jury duty, oh what fun, NOT!! I had postponed it last year as it was suppose to be in September during our IVF cycle so now I guess I can't run from it. I wish it was voluntary as the court house is not in our town and I have to drive a ways to get to it. It's not like you really get reimbursed for serving and with gas prices on the rise it would suck if they call me up to go serve. Plus I am not really into wanting to hear all the gory details of a case and be responsible for making a decision about what happens to someone.

As far as our infertility journey goes...I am working hard to save what we need to continue. With the changes in our insurance it made things much harder to keep going. I now need to come up with the first 3k before the insurance will pay for anything, and even after the 3k it's only going to be at 80%. So I am fundraising with our store, yard sale this spring, and saving every penny. I don't know if we will be able to go see Dr. Kwak-Kim this year or if we will do it in 2013 in Jan. I wish I could go now being 38 time is not on my side. At least though we have the frozen embryo's waiting for us, all we need now is the testing to find out if immune issues are there, then we can know if I need other medications before doing a FET.

I don't know if it will ever work out for us, all I can do is hold on to Faith that God cares about my dreams and wants to bless us in his timing.

TTC'ers Prayer

Gracious God,

We long for a child and find our hearts shaved of hope. As month after month we go childless. The love we have to give and share with a child fills us to the brim, but that love seems thwarted when our longing is not fulfilled. Look with tenderness upon us, oh God. Let the disappointment that hangs over us be lifted by the joy of your touch. Give us the patience that will re-build hope. As we wait for the fullness of our love in the high calling of parenthood. We ask this for the sake of your love.

Amen.

HBW Store is up and Running

A while ago I posted that I was designing some infertility wristbands. Well the first of those designs has arrived.

I decided to set up a Hoping Waiting Believing store on Facebook and not just make this a one time thing but begin to work on and make other encouraging jewelry/items. This will give me a creative outlet and a way to continue to raise funds for further testing and a future FET.

Check out my Facebook store by clicking the picture below. To order bands click on the SHOP NOW tab on that page.