BFN on my cycle#2. I think I must know my body pretty good as last few days before the blood test I kinda knew it was going to be that. I tried to maintain the hope it would not be but I did not have the extremely sore bb's like I did on cycle#1 so that gave me a big indicator that nothing happened. It is hard to know how to feel, I gave it all I could this last time.
Waiting for AF to show up in full force, so far it is teasing me with bad cramping and a little spotting. Need it to be bright red blood then the plan is to call the clinic to go in the next day (day 2 of cycle) for a u/s blood, talk about if there is time before Dec. 31st to do another fresh cycle as our insurance changes next year. Otherwise we will do a FET with our two frozen one's.
DH and I talked then if none of those two work then we may try embryo adoption but there is such a waiting list at our clinic it maybe better to look at foster adoption. I don't know if we would be eligible, I've heard so many stories of how hard it is to do so. I guess we will cross that bridge if we get to it.
I've learned in this life you just got to take it one day at a time. If I look to the future to far in advance it only overwhelms me and stresses me, brings me worry. God tells us not to worry but to trust in him for he has a plan for our good. If nothing else I know he has used me along this journey to bless other ttc ladies, ladies I never would of met had I had not struggled with infertility. I understand a pain that most do not now.
Prayer Request: That AF would show up in the next day or two. Our Dr. follow up visit will go well, maybe have some answers, a better plan or different meds we can try. That we get a chance to do cycle#3 before our insurance changes, that we have time to get it all in by Dec. 31st. Most important that God continues to give us strength and will bless us someday with a child.
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher
"You can never quit. Winners never quit, and quitters never win." - Ted Turner
“True strength is keeping everything together when everyone expects you to fall apart.”—Unknown
Lord, I need my spirit refreshed and renewed today. Speak to me through Your Word that I might hear Your heart, and help me to share my heart with You in prayer. Amen. -Acts 3:19-
I will let Christ put my broken pieces together today.
I do not need to fear anyone or anything.
I will refuse to let anxiety rule over me.
I will let Christ control my life.
I will trust Christ completely.
I am unconditionally loved.
I will let my worries go. Thank you LORD.
